'I will fill this ship tag all by myself if I have to' -- The quote from your icon is basically the warcry of rarepair shippers lol

Getting out all the ship feels in a certain number of works is an ideal that's been hard to fulfil. It's like in one fan there's a creator and a shipper, and the shipper just wants more and more.

I'm trying to figure out too how to be self-sustaining in a sustainable and even inspiring way. Then the temptation to align tastes with what's less unpopular won't be as strong.